In 2020, a falling out with my father set off a chain reaction that nearly cost me everything.
What started as a family conflict that I believed could be healed became a three-year period of complete estrangement. No visits. Barely any contact. And as the silence stretched on, so did the damage. My relationship with my mother became strained. My marriage began to crumble. I pushed away friends and clients. My business, built on a reputation for helping people navigate their most important relationships, began to fall apart.
The irony was not lost on me. I was known as a relationship whisperer, and I couldn't fix one of my most important relationships.
What I didn't understand at the time was that the falling out with my father had activated something much deeper. I had spent a lifetime unconsciously viewing every man in my life through the lens of that relationship, behaving more like a daughter than a partner, a friend, or a colleague. I was living patterns I had inherited without ever choosing them. And those patterns were quietly destroying everything I loved.
Imposter syndrome moved in and made itself at home. I lost all confidence in myself and in my work. By early 2023, I had reached a place of genuine despair. I had run out of answers, and for the first time in my life, I had run out of fight.
So, in May of 2023, my husband and I did something I never imagined I would do. We traveled to Costa Rica and sat with Mother Ayahuasca for the very first time.
I was terrified. I had never used any substance beyond alcohol in my entire life. I walked in with no idea what to expect and a quiet, desperate hope that something would shift.
It did.
Ayahuasca did not fix my relationship with my father. She did something far more important. She quieted my ego long enough for me to see myself clearly - the inherited wounds, the unconscious patterns, the ways I had been moving through the world that were keeping me stuck. One week after returning home, I traveled to see my father and had the conversation I had been waiting three years to have. I walked in with no anger, no resentment, and no fear. I walked out with my father back in my life.
That was the beginning.
Since then, my husband and I have returned to ceremony multiple times, including a deeply transformative 7-day Master Plant Dieta in Peru in 2024 and, most recently, a return to New Life Rising in March of 2026. The integration work continues every single day - in the insights that arrive in dreams, in quiet moments of recognition, in the slow and steady reshaping of who I am becoming.
I am not the same person I was in 2020. I am not the same person I was in 2023. And I have no interest in stopping here.
What plant medicine has made undeniably clear is this: I was put on this earth to help people change the trajectory of their lives. To help them confront what they have been carrying, find the courage to look at it honestly, and build something extraordinary from what they discover on the other side. That is not something I read in a book or learned in a training program.
It is something I lived.
And it is exactly what I am here to help you do.